The time when I start is the time when it dissapears

I always want to write.. 

Many thoughts, words, stories and plots pop up on my mind;

the need feeling of pouring my brain into sentence is very huge — very huge that

i feel i hear myself saying to my brain the sentences that i have to write

But pity me, everytime i decide to start pouring my brain, time when i start to open my laptop and

when my finger touch keyboard..that is the time when all the concept dissapear.

and it also happened right now.

I already hear myself saying to my brain to open the laptop from yesterday night.

and the opening sentence “I always want to write” is a sentence that haunted me for almost last 12 hours.

and now, i am blank right away. I lost the plot and ideas.

I dont know why is it happened on and on.

either i put it too long on my short term memory or i am too much worry about the plot; so that it is disappear.

I wish, I could fix this by exercising a lot.

i hope there is no more time when i started and its the time when it dissapears

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