Utopian romantic

Life is so much about surprises. 

Also love.

Human cannot run from the feeling of wanting and dreaming of finding their soulmate.

Can we human never dream about the happy settle feeling to be shared with the loved one?

or dreaming about happy home that is built together?

Human is wired to find love.

On finding it... that's another story. Human is wired to have utopian dream about it.

Some people wish to find it on their friends eyes.

Some people wish to find it on the new faces they met.

or even, some people wish to find it miraculously fall from heaven.

But I still remember how I find mine.

First fact about it, I don't realize it, and surprisingly, I don't expect it.

It was several years ago.

he was one of my colleague that I didn't know well, even probably I didn't know his name.

we went for teamwork training in an exotic resort in an island far far away.

I remember, first time I notice that he was there is when he made jokes with others.

and theylaughed often.

-- My first impression - he was an ice breaker guy, who probably too extrovert for me.

And then..... I forget.

I am too busy feel excited arriving at the exotic resort.

Until that after dinner time session, somehow we were in one karaoke team.

now I start to noticed him as he lent me his kind of Texas hat

-- my second impression - he has a kind open heart, who probably not really my style

The night getting late, we were singing, laughing and dancing together. 

What I knew at that time, I was enjoying my time around him. That's it.

The day after, we were again managed to be one team on building sand castle competition.

There was nothing special, no feeling or else.

Yet, when the pictures are being distributed after the event, I realized that somehow I managed myself to be next to him in the at least 7 pics.

-- my justification: that was just probability effect.

And, the outing came to an end.

me and several friends managed to continue our trip for shopping on next famous island.

I am excited for shopping!

But on the cruise went to the next island, I felt sudden emptiness.

I looked for his presence, I felt sudden disappointment that he was not there.

I was anxious and hated my self for not saying a proper goodbye.

That sudden empty feeling gave me a signal that I was craving, and wanting to be next to him, who I had not known until 40 hours before. And that's how I find mine.

It's far from the ideal utopian dream, but its sweet.