My Recipe of Happiness

Today, 22 May 2014.

I cannot missed it, I cannot postpone it. I need to write it down.

I am so Happy.
I am sooo Happpyyy, until I think that I will not be able to be happier than today.

Today I feel light and content at the same time.
I feel so alive and grateful for the days that I had.

Why?

So here is the recipe:

1. I woke up quite early and have the time for sipping hot tea while doing some homework before I do anything else.
2. I had a good nap in the afternoon, it was only 1.5-2 hours, yet very fulfilling.
3. I made time to do yoga at my house. It was only 30 mins session guided by some youtube video :p YET it was very refreshing.
4. I cooked, yes you read it right. I cooked! after a long time, I cooked something with heat. A homecooking food always be the best remedy.
5. I had dinner with myself, while starring at the beautiful dim light of Jakarta. I had a time for my mind to wander a lot.

These five lists of activities, is my combo package of happiness.

Happiness is simple :)

Love,
Catherine

A story of changing name to "Diary of My Busy Mind"

I had once write a post explained that this blog used to have name: "Microstory Blog"
and then changed to the current ordinary name "A Diary of My Busy Mind"

Well, I suddenly want to explain it once again.

Me personally actually love the first name better.
Yet, the one who will understand is probably just a very small number of people and this blog will not be attractive for most people, while the objective of my blog is to share my thoughts and lesson learned in life to as many people as possible.

But well, let me try to explain the meaning of both names.

MICROSTORY BLOG

I always think myself as a complicated person. I see things in depth and detail.
Probably its the mix of science as my education background, and my reflective personality traits..Its the perfect mix for me to spend lot of time thinking in depth and detail way.
I always imagine things on very tiniest structure-in atomic structure to be exact.

I imagine my brain as a house of billions of neuron cells, and each of that neurons has their own purpose, has their own life, thoughts and vision. 
On the human thinking process, I imagine that billion of neurons will have different perspectives with other billion neurons - They bring different messages, different campaigns, and they race one and each other until one party wins and the human make a decision or choose which statement to believe.

I also imagine, my brain as a big compartment of memory. Its like a huge big room where giant cupboards placed, or its like a computer system where there are thousands folder where I categorize memory.

And I want my microstory blog to capture those tiny little details in my life, so that every readers understand the process, comprehend the detail story before arriving to the take outs.

DIARY OF MY BUSY MIND

This sounds more ordinary...yet, more humble and simple?
Above explanation shows how busy my brain is :)
and I come up with the idea that this name can still capture my tiniest little things yet understood by larger population :D

yet, let my readers give me the input of this... which one do you prefer ?

Individualistic traits

I am not a certified psychologist yet I arrived at the conclusion that I am an individualistic person.

By being an individualist, I can say that I have small tolerance level. Well, yes I am a control freak! 

Yet, During my short span of life (27 years now); I learned that I can only control what I can control. I learn that I can't control others decision, others thoughts and expectation.

so.. how do I feel the control?
I control what I can control, which is myself.. my thoughts and expectation.
so when there is some unexpected things happen, I control my feeling and thoughts towards it.
and I also do filtering of what I read, what I hear and my surroundings.
I choose consciously 'the food' or the input for my mind.

If someone keep posting bad news about job or bragging about their life or keep complaining about life.. I will decide to remove it from my sight, so that it doesn't bring negative thoughts to my mind.

I choose who I hang out with (some may say I am an extremist for doing this).
Yet I believe that my life is a private garden where I have to choose the living organism inside the fence.

Somehow I relate individualistic trait with the needs of freedom.
Individualists are people who need control over their life yet does not like being controlled.
Individualists are not neccessary shy, they just choose to be with themselves often.
all these traits make one individualist control their circle, choose their friend and partner and filter the  input for their mind.

One thing for sure, individualists are not cold hearted peraon who are cruel or  merciless person.
They never intentionally hurt other person feeling. Yet... they are less care about other people's life., so that it is appear that they care less and less empathetic.

well, everyone has their own plusses and minuses, right?